Worse feeling.. :'(

What do you feel,

when something that you wait and really hope to happen for a long time..

And know it is the  only chance that you have..

Then it end with disappointment?

I call it super duper double triple HURT.

Hurt inside so badly. 

I'm tired!

Tired to be the only one who really wants it.

Tired to be the only one who make effort.

Tired to be the only one who was hoping too much.

Tired to be the only one who was worried so mush.

Tired to be the only one who always waiting. 

Tired to be the only one who was always crying.

Tired to be the only one who was always hurting.

Tired to be the only one who was always disappointed.

Thank you for making me believe on your sweet promises again.

One message for you..

" Don't make Promises that you can't keep"

Lesson for me..

Don't be too hopeful on something that will not happen

Coz it will only end with disappointing.

Bertemu, Berteman dan Terjatuh..

BERTEMU DENGANMU ADALAH TAKDIR..

MENJADI TEMAN RAPATMU ADALAH PILIHANKU..

TAPI...

JATUH CINTA DENGANMU..

ITU ADALAH DI LUAR KEMAMPUANKU..

MAAFKAN AKU.. :'(

Thinking and Dreaming of YOU :'(

Thinking about YOU before i go bed..

Dreaming about YOU during my sleep time..

Having TEARS in my eyes once I woke up..

All this happen because of YOU.. 

The person I know becomes The person I Knew

Dear YOU..

YOU the person i met long ago..

YOU the person i get close long ago..

YOU the person who makes my day shining..

YOU the person that makes me laugh..

YOU the person that makes me smile..

YOU the person who makes me stay..

But,

It was long ago.

Now..

YOU the person who stops trying..

YOU the person who forgotten..

YOU the person that makes me weak..

YOU the person that makes me sad..

YOU the person who makes me crying all night..

YOU the person who decided to go..

YOU the person that I KNOW long ago..

And now..

YOU becomes the person I ONLY KNEW..

Goodbye YOU..

:'(

My Praying :')

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Oh Allah,

I thank You for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this whole day. I'm blessed because You are most forgiving and most understanding . You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you.I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And give the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.I know that when I don't always make the right choices, and I feel so bad for all my past sins, You listen to my heart.Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately.  I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe. I believe that Allah changes people and Allah changes things.

I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than Allah. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it. 

ALLAHUAKHBAR!

Hari Bahagia :')

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Entri pd mlm ney amat istimewa bwt dri sy sendiri. Why? Because today is my 23rd BIRTHDAY!!! Another special day without CAKES and also BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. But, that's not what i wanna share. Entri kali ney is about HARI BAHAGIA.

Semua org akan alami dan telah mengalami HARI BAHAGIA. And most of them akan meletakkan HARI PERTUNANGAN or maybe HARI PERKAHWINAN sebagai HARI BAHAGIA. Am i right?? Yes of course! But for me...itu bukanlah HARI PALING BAHAGIA dlm hidup sy. Maybe that's one of them..but not the MOST.

HARI PALING BAHAGIA dlm hidup sy telah sy lalui 23 tahun yg lalu. Hari tersebut jatuh pd tarikh 05 JANUARI 1990...hari PERTAMA sy dilahirkan di DUNIA ciptaan yg MAHA KUASA ini. Knapa sy katakan ianya HARI BAHAGIA sy?? Because, without that BORN DAY.. I wouldn't be here right now. That BORN DAY, makes me like today. Thanks to my MAMA for giving me a birth. I cause you so much pain when you giving me a life. I PROMISE..I won't let you down MAMA. I PROMISE!!!

So..if anybody asking me about HARI BAHAGIA..my answer won't change. 05 JANUARI 1990 adlh HARI PALING BAHAGIA buat sy and also MY FAMILY for getting such a cute BABY GIRL ekekeke :p

Wlaupun BIRTHDAY kali ney agak hambar..but i still HAPPY coz..sy masih m'punyai SAHABAT yg setia menemani. Thanx so much friends for being here with me. And thank you to my LOVELY ROOMATE  for the GIFT! First gift i've got today. Mug Spongebob..soooooo CUTE haha. Tak sempat nak taking picture..later sy upload..saja nak tunjuk haha. Thanx FITRI AISYAH DULAH!

BTW.. HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY AINUN MARDIAH IBRAHIM. HAPPY SELALU..hopefully :')